Why is life full of decisions.. Will it be better if you live like the Sims and some1 else is controlling how u move.. Or wat if there is an undo button somewhere or a trial button.. life is well... REAL.. every step you make changes your future like the butterfly effect.. seconds ticks away of no return, and then suddenly every decision feels like tons of weight upon ur shoulder.. I hate life, but I like it too for all the fun times with u guys and my gf too.. damn I'm contradicting myself.
I wish I have search harder for a job in the UK. At least now I'd still be with my girlfriend in Leeds and we wont have to quarrel over webcam once a week and miss each other the other days.. DOes long distance relationship work? She wants to stay in the UK to earn more money, I want to stay in Malaysia to build my career. Long relationship couples stayed together because of old memories of good times, or holding on for love, or mayb just mayb because no party want to be the bad guy to end it. its a gruesome experience, and the naive me thought that love heals all.. ok, a lot of you would say that's SO NOT ME.. or is it? Shit! I'm schizophrenic.
I need some help weighing some pros and cons..
1a. Go to the UK for a holiday, spend all cash, zero on savings (mayb hav to quit my job)
1b. Dont go for the holiday, probability of ending the relationship..
2a. Go to UK for a short course of ACCA, need to spend either her money or my mom's money
2b. Don't go for the course, prolly end of relationship..
3a. choosing either option 1 or 2 to avoid the bad ending = slower career development.
3b. mommy and daddy are over 55 and still working to support my sister and the family, really wish I can help earn for the family so they can retire = Don't choose option 1 or 2..
Actually, we've come to terms on option 1 by the end of the year and consequently option 2 by the 3rd quarter of next year.. How would you guys comment.. or mayb not..
I'm just blaberring.. sorry... this post will be deleted soon.
If I had a magic lamp, I'll wish I'm hell rich so I dont need to work and I can be anywhere I want. but that's everyone's wish.. why are we born to have headaches.. ARGHH!~~~...
Tomorrow will be better (if you start avoiding your problems, that can be true.. but facing it needs a decision.., hence, tomorrow is still a headache).. not a good ending to my post.. lets finish with 2 photos of 2 recent fren's bday, so everyone can have a good laugh or mayb an awkward moment..
Titty cake
cocky cake..
that's a bombshell ending.. tada~~ nitey
